Every morning when i lie down on my bed, i will always think of the olden days,
The changes in me, the changes around me.
The things that i have done, accomplished,
And things that i never done, fail to do.
Things that i wanted to do but i didn't do,
Things i never wanted to do but i have done.

I remember when i was young, i used to spend alot of time outside with my friends.
Soccer, cycling - My usual sports when i was about Primary 5 or 6.
Perhaps there isn't much to do at home and that was why i went out almost everyday.
I really enjoyed those days alot and definitely wish it weren't over yet.

After so many things that happened these few years, I felt i have changed alot.
Just like i will never consider the consequences of something that i did when i was young,
but now its different. But sometimes i just felt i consider too much about it.
Last time, I can lie without blinking an eye, without having any guilt in my heart.
But if you want me to do the same thing now, i can't.
I just can't get through myself, and i will probably run away from the problem.

Thinking back, i guess my relationship with my brothers aren't that close in the past.
I guess i was too stubborn in the past. I do things without thinking about their feelings.
Or perhaps i should say i wasn't being considerate.
Well, things have changed in this two or three years.
We were much closer compared to the past, at least that is what i feel.
I tried my best to put them first before me when we are together.
And i know they are doing the same thing as well..

When i was primary 6, the day before taking PSLE, i was playing DOTA.
Thinking back now makes me feel stupid.
When i was Secondary One, i focused too much on playing rather then studying.
I always forget to do homework until the last min,
forget about the test im having the next day.
Eventually i left school for half a year, and I went back when i was Secondary Two.
But i dropped from Express to Normal academics.
The first day of school, i was really very happy.
My friends welcomed me back to school, which i didn't really thought they would.
Teachers treat me well too. I told myself this is just like a second chance,
a second chance to cherish what i didn't when i was at Sec One.
I gave my best in all my homework, tests, exams. Even in my CCA.
I really felt that i had the Fire in me when i was in school. Or should i say the motivation in me.
At the end of every term, I'm always very excited about my results.
I admit i was not very happy about my results [of course i wish i was first] ,
There's always one thing that cheered me up at the end of the day,
And that is the feeling of accomplishment.
That's my only year that i have scored so well in my tests and exams,
and that is the only year i gave everything in.