So tired of seeing people change face.
This moment they are so friendly and the next moment u feel like kicking his ass.
Its also very disappointing to see these things happen.
I should probably be used to it, or , stop trust others a single bit.

I wanna talk to you, but all these years no matter how i try,
i couldn't get close to you.
Perhaps we are really from different world -
the only reason i can give myself.

Ironic, usually when you are at the top of the mountain,
you probably can see everything under you.
I actually don't think so.
I think, when you're at rockbottom, you can see everything much more clearly.

Eg, how people treats you when you are richer than them, they can "paur" you so much,
and the next moment how they treat you when you are not that rich , or poorer than them, they can ignore your calls and literally asking you to fck off, and then, you see what kind of people they are. Seriously, never expect me to help them.

34 days later, i'm gonna take 'o' level . Right now, i have 0% confidence to pass.
Guess the remaining days, i should just study hard for my english and e-maths.
They are my priority now. Hopefully a minimum of B3, and a A2 for chinese.
Sorry POA & A-Maths, too tough for me currently.
Perhaps i should enter a private school next yr, no doubt it might be costly,
but in exchange for a cert, guess its worth it uh?

My ideal self - Giving my family any thing that i can, working hard for my ideal future and give them a better life, knowledgeable and considerate.
That's what i currently can think of, my own ideal self.

Actually, i tried to take every setbacks right now as a lesson in life.
But it seems that im taking this lesson a lot earlier than others.
I don't know if i am too young to take all this,
I can only make myself believe that i am more mature than others.

Quin once told me, they aren't sacrificing for the family like i am,
because they are not me, They won't become me, and I can't change them.
I can only accept the way they are, and do my own part - so that i feel good.

Everything that happen today is probably because of this "GUY",
The obstacles i'm facing, the unhappiness I'm or, my family are experiencing,
It's all because of this "GUY"!
I really hate you, you literally break my family up.

But on the other hand, if not for you,
I wouldn't have a little brother, I will probably not learn as much as i have today,
I would probably still be a immature kid.

I wonder, and wonder, If one day i get to find you,
What will I do to you?