darkness is what i see

just like my laptop, i can only see the darkscreen,

and not the bright screen anymore.

I always thought there is a barrier between me and this world,

but i actually realised, perhaps the barrier is me myself.

I'm stopping myself from this world, from everybody.

I thought im treating everything i does seriously,

Maybe i really did, But it was Seriously-Blind

I mean, i have two eyes,

But it seems that this few days weeks months or even years,

I'm doing things blindly.

I thought i can apply tactical knowledge in life,

Just like football.
But it doesn't seems that way,

Was my tactical knowledge un-Superior,

Or was it that,

i am applying the wrong tactic.

Thoughts

I always feel,
There is a gap,
between me and anyone.
Just like the inner world and the outer world.
I don't share the same thoughts,
perhaps that's just me ?

Every minutes every seconds,
Am i being myself or am i acting to be,
Always trying to figure out what others is thinking,
Their emotions, their thoughts, their opinion of me,
Am i trying to 知己知彼百战百胜 ,
Or am i showing lack of confidence?

Now now, i want to create a new blog template.

Impossible.
It will never become possible,
Especially between me and her.

Liverpool is getting very impressive,
with the thrashing of Real Madrid and Man Utd,
Last night was the thrashing of Aston Villa.
Very Impressive.
And im eagerly waiting for the
Barcelona vs Bayern Munich battle.

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I hope i don't give empty-talks again.

Where do i head?

我到底该往哪里前近
我突然间觉得好累
我常常都在想
我的未来到底是怎样
想, 想, 想, 想到 I lost interest in everything
I know i often say this,
i felt useless when i can't do anything to help,
but its a fact that im really a useless, hopeless guy.
Did i really choose a wrong step?
Or was it a step that doesn't make any difference?

Is there anything to really motivate me,
get me more interested in life,
more passion when im doing things.

When will i really wake up from my dream?

My Idol

I guess i have fall in love with this..
This Sports, Called Football.
Ever since the start of this season's EPL,
I watched many matches,
Be it Serie A, La Liga, or even Bundesliga
I watched them.
Whether it is Bayern Munich, Chelsea, InterMilan or even Barcelona,
I love watching them play.
Especially for Chelsea i guess,
Whenever they wins a game,
I could feel that they play as a team,
and the way they treat each other,
Probably is more than how teammates treat each other.

Back to topic,
My idol...
The Portuguese Technician, Jose Mourinho.
He's basically a wonderful football manager,
leading Chelsea to many trophies in his few years in Chelsea,
Sadly he left Chelsea after a few years.
Then, he went to Internazionale, which is Inter Milan
My Serie A favourite football team.
I can't say Jose Mourinho is a Perfect Manager,
although at first i thought he is,
due to his attitude i guess.
The way he plays the 4-3-3 Style in Porto,
the Man-Marking style in Chelsea,
are all very interesting and unique.
And most importantly,
He's the only man who can give pressure to Man Utd in his few years stay in England.
Yes although Inter lost to Man Utd last night,
and i am a little sad and angry,
But i guess they put in all the efforts,
including Jose Mourinho's tactics,
But ladyluck isn't on their side,
They leaked two goals and nearly score twice by hitting the post.
And so, they are eliminated from the Champions League,
they are only left with Serie A and Coppa Italia,
Which i hope they will be able to turn the tides when they face Sampdoria,
in the second leg of Coppa Italia.
Go Inter, Go Chelsea!

Think too much

People always say i think too much,
Mr Yong used to say so, and now quin says so.
Its a really bad habit i guess.
Quin once told me, " Thinking too much stops the enjoyment. "
At first i dont understand, but slowly i do.
If u think too much when the game has just started,
U think of the negative points of the game.
Den u won't feel any enjoyment in it.
Chim right?

I realised when i can have this thing, I don't want it.
I want more or I want a better one.
But when i lost the better one and I want this,
It won't be mine too.

Probably what im saying no ones understand,
because i don't want to be direct, But just something i understand.